10.13.22 Boondocking in Flagstaff, Arizona
I’ve been here for 3 days. Three glorious, quiet, serene days.
They’ve also been a bit lonely at times.
As a reader here or a follower of me on Instagram you know very well I had been traveling with Jon.
We’ve had an on again, off again relationship for since January 2021.
So if you have been following along you’ll notice that I no longer write about “we” but “I”. Jon is gone. We cut ties, completely. He went his way and I went mine.
It’s taken me about 2 weeks to adjust and get all the emotions out that are associated with a breakup – anger, hatred, sadness, denial, loneliness. Well, not the loneliness.
If I lived in a sticks and bricks living alone wouldn’t be so bad. I would have my friends, coworkers and neighbors around to distract and console me as needed.
But I live alone, in an RV, in the middle of the woods. My nearest neighbors are about 1/4 mile away and I don’t see them or know them.
I’m grateful for social media like Instagram where I have great interactions with others. And Marco Polo app where I keep up everyday with my great friend Hunter. These have truly saved my sanity.
This sounds cold-hearted but I don’t miss Jon. That ship has sailed. And I don’t really want to live in a sticks and bricks home. What I’m saying is that going through heartache without human interaction, true interaction like physical hugs and face to face laughter and conversation is a difficult process and can leave many people in extreme sadness.
Human touch and interaction is vital to our existence as healthy humans. I was fortunate enough to be able to visit mom, my son and some friends after the breakup. Then I headed out to the woods.
My healing is happening because of the wonderful people in my life – online and offline. But the loneliness may take a little longer to get accustom to. I mean, I’ve been full time RVing for over 2 years and most of that was with Jon. This is going to be a huge adjustment.
I made a video on YouTube about my experience. You can watch it below or on YouTube. Here’s the link: https://youtu.be/bJ0eQgbE4WU
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